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hi there, this is me, the owner, CADEN YAP a.k.a the singapore no.1 bastard
birthday falls on 24th MARCH every year


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Tuesday, January 03, 2006 3:08 AM
FINALLY SKL REOPEN IN 3HRS TIME!!!homework still not finished. so intend to do it when teacher ask for it. going to stay back to do it, i guess. lol. wells, school reopen means more stress. this year O level le. sobs. wonder if i can pass or not. just realised that i have not been touching on my secondary3 work. hais. Pray that everything will be alright. i have yet to buy my school bag and pencil case. wonder when my dad going to buy for me. maybe i tell him, i go buy first, receipt pass to him lor. haha. i also havn't get my allowance. first month of the year and he delayed giving me allowance. sobs. and i can see that he do not want me at home, he asked me what time am i going off, and i told him normal time. then he was like shocked and asked me, no need change bus arhs. [in chinese, translated] so i told him, he didn't give me extra money, no money to top up my card. and he was there laughing. [wahaha]actually, he's just caring for me. scared i late. but i'm still wondering if i should go skl today. sigh. see whether he wakes me up later.

and he's going overseas during chinese new year. sigh. leaving me all alone again. [sobs]last year, he went overseas in the morning of my birthday. sad right? but no choice. i still remembered that day is SPORTS DAY!! that was how i spent my birthday. all alone. hais. last year is full of wonderful and sad memories. many things happen. i just prayed that everything will go on smoothly this year. and meanwhile, i shall persuade my dad to let me emigrate. wahaha. he sure won't allow de bahs. unless he emigrate too. even if i no longer enjoy being together with the people, but at least i know that the memories will be kept in my heart forever. thanks guys for coming into my life and making impact in it.

for me to know and for you to find out has already been a verse that i repeated over and over again to you. yeah. the letter. when i'm chatting with you and i thought of the letter, i will laugh. but in my heart, when settled down, i will be thinking, it's all over. there's nothing i can do, so i will not let you see it bahs. it will be in my bag, but you have to wait till a point when i suddenly have the urge to let you see, then you will be able to see. too bad la. wahaha. you are the one i promised, the reason why i gave up intially, the answer is in the letter. hope that your smile will be real this year. no fake smiles please.

thank you **. though i do not know you that well, but still, thanks for making me realise how difficult it is to get to know a person better. things have changed. as i looked through the message you sent. is so sweet of you. so adorable. lols. seriously, you are kind, sweet-hearted and of course chio. if not you will not be my **. (: i guess the only memories we had is when i sent you home? though nothing happen, but everytime i sent you home, my mind will start to think, yeah. you reached home safely. cool. hope to know you more this year if possible. if nothing goes wrong. lols. work hard for your goal. i believe you can do it.

as for you, i also want to thank you. last year had been a great year with you. the memories, whether is it sad or happy, is all in my heart. when i look back, i just cannot stop smiling at the happy memories, but sad memories will leave me sitting in front of my desk, and thinking about it for the whole day. this shows how much you affected me. a very great impact. giving you up is not easy, but i will let my studies and church come into the first priority. and i know, i will miss you when i'm free, when i can relaxed. but i hope is the happy times we had together. this year, i will not be able to meet you as often as i do last year, but i promise, i will keep in touch with you forever.

BROS!!![jasmine tan][christina]thanks for everything. in your, i managed to learn a lot of things that i did not learn when i was in sec1. though there are some conflicts here and there, but i just hope that we will stay as BROS forever. or perhaps, your can call me kor, but then, i will call your MEIS! great idea seh. haha. this year is streaming year for your. i pray that your will do well in the tests and go into a combination your want. don't regret. if there's any problem, can always come and look for me de. i will be there no matter how busy i am. i'm serious. find me anytime.

another year passed, 2005. this year, 2006 will be a better year. it will be a year of harvest and breaking through 1000! i have Faith in this. and Lord, i want to thank you for not leaving all alone when i faced a problem. my appearance make other people feel that i'm strong. but Lord, only you know how weak my heart is. no matter what happen, i will stand strong in You. because You deserve all of me.